"my first day" or "the (illusory?) security of anonymity"

i have never done this before.

why am i doing this?

...i don't feel well; some sort of head cold/sinus infection, which was most likely contracted from a co-worker (yet another reason to avoid being gainfully employed).

blah.

so, why AM i doing this?
peer pressure? perhaps.
sheer desperation to communicate my feelings to someone - or, more likely, to simply spill out some of the mental refuse that continually clogs my mind?
maybe it doesn't matter.

well, whatever.
now that i have started, i may as well put some small effort into it.